We all know that one, if it falls does it make a sound without a witness?

In the same vein, does a written character exist if not read?

I want to publish, but I want the very best possible version to be offered.

Is this prevarication to avoid judgement, or a genuine desire to polish my work, or indeed fear of the pounds shillings and pence involved in it all?

I think its a paradoxical unity of divergent forces – that or probably some sort of emotional/intellectual constipation.

I want to, I just can’t…

To professionally edit 130,000 words will cost me c£1,500+.

To get that oh so professional cover, again upwards of £200.

Before we’ve even sold a single copy, I’m £1,700 in debt.

A book will sell for say £6.00, that means I need to sell 250 copies to just break even.

Book one, according to accepted writing lore will sell between 250-500 copies, many much, very much, lower…

So, the two headed snake is one of pragmatism, I can’t take £1,700 out of the family budget just to make me a ‘published writer’ – and the second head is one of emotional desire.  If I don’t do something, find some sort of solution I will, I fear, go slightly insane with the frustration of it all.

First world problems – I know.

So that’s me.

Stay safe, remain sane, and remember to tell the ones you love that you do indeed love them!